i simultaneously love the internet/want to destroy every bit of it.

well apparently i’m yelling in my sleep. that’s great.

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Relationships are sooooo weird. Why does anyone do them?

le petit peintre

πŸ’š baes πŸ’œ



Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.

— Rumi

on the phone with my grandma

gma: i’m sending you the holy ghost documentary and the info on that female pastor i met who reminds me of you. her church is in glendale and they minster to people who are down and out and also in the entertainment industry.

she’s not married either. Β watch the movie and let me know what you think.

me: send it to my moon email. send it (shudders).

gma: is jonathan with you? i heard a male voice.

me: no. i’m outside walking the dog. there were people around. i haven’t seen jonny in weeks since i picked up the dog. he still texts me sometimes that he misses me but i can’t raise a human adult. i can’t do it.

gma: but you’re saving money not going out to all those fancy dinners you would mostly pay for at least.


me:Β not really. i did go on a coffee date though. with a novelist and a poet whose mind intimidates me. i need to read a lot more books. maybe we’ll be friends i don’t know.

gma: are you still going to therapy on sunday mornings?

me: not every sunday. it’s expensive but i like her. (CHURCH SUBSTITUTE).

gma: are you coming up for thanksgiving?Β 

me: yes i saved all of my vacation days and will be home for a lot of november and december. my birthday and what not.

gma: oh wow we’ll have you for all of that.Β 


*kills self*

saves me

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